Some people can run and exercise all the time, I cannot. I could as a kid and through about my mid 20's, but then my knees and hip declined to work... and 4 surgeries later, it has not changed for any better. I do suffer from my conversations pointing towards what I was when I could, and that has become depressing. Sadly, it has been dating which has been the catalyst to build this barrier. Everyone wants an active lifestyle, and when you physically cannot achieve that - it becomes a negative. So, I try to explain how 10 years ago, I could climb 3 14'ers a day, naked, in the cold, carrying a small goat on my back. Yet, it often fails because unless you've known me for 20+ years, one cannot garner that much understanding acceptance necessary to fill out that "perfect mate" checklist. I guess what I am saying is - it is extremely tough to have your personality and desires stunted by your body's ability to fulfill them. I honestly get sad watching basketball, tennis or soccer. I want to be out there on the field. It was my home. These plastic chairs in the peanut gallery just suck and do nothing to feed my competitiveness. I cannot even imagine what it would be like to be paralyzed... but my heart certainly goes out to those who are. Their struggle and the amount of strength it takes is akin to my friend who had the heart transplant a few years back.

Some people do drugs. I don't, never did, never will. However, I do miss the "high" I got from exercising so much.

Some people eat. That's me. I can remember eating massive amounts of food and losing weight because of my exercise regimen and multiple year round sports. I used to drink a slimfast after every meal, do the weight gainer 8 million and had a personal trainer work on me to build up my muscle. What is funny is when you look at my arms, they are strong, but tiny. I couldn't gain any weight at all with all of those ingredients trying to get me to bulk up. Now, because of my knees the most difficult thing to do is not eat the amounts of food I have been accustomed to since I was a fetus. Now, my beagle, Copper, if given a bag of food would eat - throw up - eat - throw up - eat ... until everything was gone. And because I have the measuring cups, that won't happen.

So, all of that mumbling and blabber above is to say, my New Year's Resolution is to hire a chef to make healthy, portioned meals and hire a "life" secretary to shock me if I stray beyond my boundaries. This seems funny but it is almost necessary because when I get into those "crazy musician" dark moods, food is there to blanket me... and sushi is just too expensive to have all the time. If I could, I'd be perfect!

So, final answer: "This year I will turn all of my excuses and self-inflicted emotional reactions of the reality of life... into motivators. I will find a way to quench my competitive physical thirst through safe channels. I will finish my new CD and start working on a Christmas CD for 2010. I will make it my duty to do those things that ought to have been done, but would not have been done unless I do it. I will make valiant strides ahead to be... a better man for myself." And if anyone can help me figure this all out... please, show me how!

Chad

Updates:

1) Web Store: I am still working out some of the bugs before I take it live. I want to make sure everything works as expected. So, my new goal is October 1. And yes, there will be a big promotion once it goes live!

2) NEW Gallery: After many years with the same, boring gallery... it has finally been updated. There are now lots of photos of trips, me, and miscellany. I can now update it with ease and the total overhaul of the application was well worth it!

3) I am also overhauling the mailing list newsletter application. Instead if it being separate from the main website, it will be integrated. This will take awhile, but it will be well worth it. It will also add a lot of functionality and sport a great new html look as well! Prepare for a few "test" emails .

4) Integration for fans: Soon, you'll be able to log in to, change/modify settings, view purchases etc. and have a profile to comment on the website as well. This is the ultimate goal that I am trying to get to. When I sent the survey out some time ago, consolidation and user logins were the only questions that received a 100% yes vote. So, I am dedicated to make it all a reality... it just may be awhile yet

5) I will also be dealing with Facebook. I'm not sure if I am going to make an artist page, or use the one I have. Nonetheless, when I make that decision, I'll make sure to have audio samples up promptly.

6) YouTube: Yes, I will also get video's up and running... later... probably Christmas time. I have implemented the functionality on the website when it's ready, so that is a positive. But, with everything else being worked on, it's going to be awhile yet.

7) Album: It is still in the adding instrumentation phase. It will probably be there this whole month of September. Cross your fingers and send good wishes that I can complete everything with enough gusto to ensure that my new CD releases before Christmas! Worst case scenario: Valentine's Day 2010...

Thank you all for your continued support and don't forget to spread the word about my music. I'm looking forward to sharing the updated website functionality and new CD with you in the near future!

-Chad

Everything has been in place, I have my groceries, I have the destination, people are waiting for me at the destination, but I can't seem to get out of the damn store. And right when I finally see the light and am walking to my car, out of the blue a bus plows itself directly into it and demolishes my way home.

I know, this year has presented its challenges. And when things finally found solid ground, it all just slips away. So, I'm left with my personal backpack on the side of the road trying to figure out in which direction to start. So, the positives: Once again, I am starting my personal life all over, after 8 years. I know I have a choice: 1) Be sad and spend a lot of time proving how sad you are and waste precious, valuable time or 2) Move forward and get over life's hurdles as best as I can, not letting moments pass me by.

Well, I choose #2. I've never quit anything in my life that I so cherish, and I don't plan too. The music industry is a pain in the ass, it's not the mythological oasis that so many dream it to be... that can only be accomplished from within. And Love is all around. We live through love and want to share life with someone till the very end, where you'll then meet in the skies as a reputable team, in the hearts of all you touched. Passion, Love, Trust, Honesty... there is no other way to live. I believe.

So good riddance year 2006. You have kicked me when I was already down and ended it with a bus. But I will continue to stand up and move, as there is no other way. Year 2007, I welcome you, and I also look forward to you. We have a lot to accomplish, and I'll need your help in doing so. I pray for everyone peace and happiness. Have a Merry Christmas, Happy Hanakuh, Kwanza, Holiday. Let's make 2007 great, shall we!?

Cheers,

Chad

Well, I am very close to a distribution deal that will allow a wider spread outlet of my music to retail stores and the digital domain. Line19 is near ready to launch its website and Todd Kelly and I have collaborated on a CD entitled "Salus - Health & Relaxation." We have received numerous requests to make a meditation CD. But we didn't want to jump on the mainstream production wagon that is very prevalent in the market. In turn, we have come up with a part rhythmic and melodic journey that takes someone on a journey. We wanted to make sure that we hit the "relaxation" notion on the mark, but also to focus on one's health. In fact, Salus is Latin for "health." The CD will be out very soon, well before Christmas, so expect an update soon!

Oh Yah!! I am also getting radio play in Canada again for "Steal My Heart!" Woo Hoo! I hope that my new management will be able to pick up where my old promoter (who passed away earlier this year) left off in January trying to get a concert scheduled in Vancouver. Who knows, but it would sure be fun!

In the meantime, I'm back to myself and have no further plans for band formation nor ever will. When you're going to do something right, do it yourself. My dad always taught me that. So, expect to see a lot of new music to come from me in the next 6 months!!! Oh, and by the way, the title for the next album is... "The Space In Between"...

Chad

Nashville is where Dedications originally came to fruition. It was after recording in LA, NM, CO that I just ventured out here to live in an InTown Suites for 2 months while I networked around town. It is here where I met Tre Corley back when he was just starting out. We've kept in touch and our friendship alive through the years -- which has truly been a blessing. Recently, he won 2 Prestigous Dove Awards and was Nominated for a Grammy that Amy Grant eventually won. So, he is also a co-producer for these songs as well.

If you recall, Tre was the co-producer for all of Dedications. And we plan to use his services to create some suprises for Jenni and my new CD due out (hopefully) end of this year. So, don't buy any Christmas presents early... wait for the CD to come out so you can spread the music to everyone you know!!

I'm sure I'll write more while I'm out here in Nashville. I am very glad to be here and have needed a vacation... work vacation for quite some time so I can find that little bit of gravity I cherish so much. Plus, Jenni has been in California and Mexico... so I got jealous!!

Chad

So last month I wrote about the project of a Christmas CD AND my second CD release... and recently some who read that entry then started asking me about a lullaby CD. And I thought that was a great idea! As far as fitting in another project this year - it's a bit unlikely. However, I really like the idea and everyone that I have asked about it (especially parents) are now lobbying me to do so! So I will try to get it done as soon as possible, but no guarantee's people!! hehe.

Yesterday, I got word that there are 2 concerts booked for this year already. One concert will be February 11th at Well's Music and the other March 3rd at the Chaparral Center. Well's Music is in Denver and and the Chaparral Center is Parker. Both locations are in Colorado. Further, we are setting up a concert for JDRF in New Mexico for sometime in Spring as well! I did a concert for them while I was still in college and it was a great pleasure. In fact, we are beginning to talk about making this a yearly concert for myself and the artists at Line19 to support! Diabetes has a history with my family and some good friends. It was due to Diabetes, that my grandfather passed away. So, it means quite a lot to me.

I'm hoping that we can not only do a concert for JDRF out in New Mexico, but in Colorado as well. Who knows, maybe we can set up yearly concerts for JDRF in both states and be able to double the opportunity to give back to the community!

Happy New Year Everyone! May it be all that you hope it to be... and Thank you Roy Williams for bringing UNC back to the basketball elite... and please may the 49ers have a decent season next year... and the best soccer (futbol) team ever LIVERPOOL... and I can't wait for World Cup this summer! Woo!

Chad